December 2010
Twenty Eight
All my friends are bugging out over my facebook status:
is it weird that when ever i drive alone i just want to steer my car
into oncoming traffic just to end my life?
This stauts is one hundred percent true. And tonight I was very tempted to actually drive into a truck on the other side of the road. Destroy the BMW I have. The BMW that let everyone...
Mayday Mayday Mayday Some One Save Me
i am fragile. some body rescue me. some body tell me you will. concrete heartache left me awake. sleepless sleeper. some body wake me up. somebody tell me you will. and tell me that you’re going to save me. that everything is going to be okay. im screaming but no body can hear me. can you save me from myself?
don't breathe in too deep; you might joke on words...
Twenty Seven
Went to a show today and it was fucking amazing. But I don’t get why a fight broke out at a Patent Pending show, seriously? Those shows are always so loving and peaceful and full of entertainment. And tonight, during one of their best songs, a fight broke out? What the fuck people? Can’t we just be peaceful and not fight.
Besides an amazing day today. I had a lot on my mind. But now I...
Twenty Six
Today was an amazing day. Went sledding during the day. To shopping at the mall. To some driving adventures with my bestie Michelle. To more sledding at night. It was a pretty epic day. I am so friggen happy my life is back on track and not messed up anymore.
And even though your name crossed my lips so much tonight, I couldn’t even care if something happened between us. As much as I have...
Twenty Five
So today I decided that I will join the polar bear club before the winter is over and that I am getting my nose pierced before break is over.
I was also watching Shes Out of My League yesterday and it made me think a lot. It’s so weird how people actually sit there and size themselves up against other people and the person they are interested in to see if they are actually good enough for...
Twenty Four
Haven’t posted because of the holidays and my life has been pretty awesome
But it upsets me when my friends get upset or change their attitude for the worst.
Theres a blizzard going on outside today and into tomorrow. I had one of my good friends, who has a car that should not be on the road in this weather, just driving around and he was saying “it would not matter if I died. I...
Twenty Three
I am probably the most frustrated person ever right now. I tried to make an amazing christmas gift present, like how they would do it on Cake Boss or Amazing Wedding Cakes, but it was the biggest epic fail ever! The cake would not stay together when we would go to put the buttercream on. So we tossed the cake and I will never try to make a cake like that again. I am seriosuly upset and extremly...
Twenty Two
I spent the day in the city today. It felt completely right; like i belonged there. I was so happy and felt like nothing could go wrong for the day. And nothing did. I really hope I get into LIM again and this time I will actually go there. I won’t let anyone convince not to go this time. My figners are really crossed for this internship and my parents letting me live in the city for the...
I might just sleep on my bedroom floor tonight....
only because I am too tired to clean everything off my bed
Twenty One
What I learned about myself today:
i have trouble following through with things i say
things between me and him will never happen
even though i decided to write you off….i can’t just yet
i hate that i left myself some what vulnerable to you
i don’t regret leaving myself vulnerable to you
i’m never going to be truly happy with myself
i put up a front so people...
kind of disappointed that i let sleep get the best of me and miss the eclipse last night
Twenty
I am almost done with my first semester of college and it is kindof freaking me out. To know there is a good chance where I won’t even be attending this school next year and my whole life could change this summer makes me freak out. But this freaking out is a good thing. I am ready to find my individual self away from home. Here, I rely so much on my family, but now it is time for me to do...
