January 2011
i'll walk the same path. i'll stay the same line.
My instant reaction when I hear Chris Brown's...
i can't focus
because i’m messed up
my mind is twisted and tangled
i don’t know what to do anymore
i need my life to get back on track
before i can’t take it anymore
and end it
it is kind of tempting
to stay awake and wait for you to come on facebook
annd hope or wait for you to facebook IM me
but then i realize how much i love sleep
and the temptation goes away.
sleep is the only time im truly happy
i dont think
i dont dream
i just lie there in an undisturbed state
sleep is the best part of my day
my biggest fear is that i'll never stop picking...
there is something wrong with me
i need a massage so badly right now
oh how i hate shoveling snow
sometimes when i talk to people
i dont even care what they say
i barely even listen
i just sit there and nod my head and say ‘thats cool’ or ‘true’
hoping they can catch the hint that i dont care for what they are saying
maybe because it has no significance to me
or maybe what you’re saying is annoying
or maybe you sound just like every other guy who just wants to get in my pants
why is it...
when you're dressed, you just bored me.
i'm fed up
i’m done.
i’m not going to do this anymore.
you have your dream and your passion.
and i support you.
but i’m ignored.
things were good not too long ago,
but i guess everything changes
when people from our pasts return into our lives.
i have to focus on my future.
not the now,
because i’m only screwing myself over.
it was nice while it lasted,
but all good things...
my past
i posted a picture today of me holding hands with my ex. this isn’t about if i still love him or not or how i wish i can change everything so we can be back together; i’m not like that, i believe everything happens for a reason. i pushed him away, just like i do with all my exs, but with him, as weird as this is, i miss him greatly. he was my best friend for over a year. i always was...
the present
i hate that i still like the same kid that i have posted numerous blogs about. i doubt he even knows they are about him and if he does, i hoesntly don’t care. as far as i know or believe, he doesn’t even have any interest in me anymore. i screwed up recently, but now we are kind of talking again. like this past week: saw him at the show, he invited me and my friend to something after...
my furture
i am stuck with LIM application: i have it done, but some reason i cannot bring myself to submit it. is it because my parents have implanted in my mind that i can’t handle living on my own? or that i’m not ready to grow up? or do i want a break from all this overly controled and schedualed life? The sad thing is; i cannot wait to grow up. i want to fast foward my life to when i’m...
i love that after a goodnight,
all you do is sit around the next day and realize how awesome it actually was. and that even though you say ‘i wish i could of done something that made it better’, theres just no making it better. last night i expierenced a bunch of great musicians. Sometimes Jamie, Ryan Higbie, One love, are just a few to name. They were unbelievable. I’ve never heard so much talent in one...
i need to go back to that place where all my...
thecolorofviolence:
Press play, just do it.
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Stay Awake (Acoustic) - All Time Low
